Tuesday, January 7, 2020
Testing before the transplant
I have like fifty flippin’ tests they want to do. Just on Wednesday I had to go to the gynecology lady (and that was just awkward, but kind of funny, the first thing she said to me after was that I was without a doubt a virgin…go me!), then a bone biopsy, then a spinal tap (just so you know, when your wife has to have a needle jabbed into her spine, when giving birth, be sensitive to the fact that it will hurt and they somehow want you to breath in deeply while sucking in your stomach….doesn’t make much sense does it?), then an echo, then an x-ray and by the time the day was over I was a sobbing shell of a human being. I spent the next two days sleeping.
Thursday, June 21, 2012
May 26th, Mary was having hard time breathing and Debbi took her to the ER. Mary was collecting fluid around her lungs and heart, again. It was pretty bad and they drained 1 1/2 liters off the left side of her body that night. They had to intubate her and hook her up to all kinds of machines and monitors. Then they transferred her to Huntsman's ICU.
Sunday was a difficult day, in which they did a lot of testing and Mary had lots of visitors. She wasn't able to speak to us, but was entertaining us all with writing her comments to us. She was her usual chipper and happy self. Same Mary. Same hospital. Different department (ICU at Huntsman is new and her last ICU visit was at the U).
Monday, the doctors told Mary that the fluid was due to GVHD and that they were not able to stop it from happening. They could prolong her life by keeping her on the machines and keeping her in the hospital, but that it was only a matter of time before the condition of her body would kill her. (She had many other issues that were contributing to very poor health.) Mary chose at that time to have the tubes and monitors removed and be put on comfort care (ie allowed to die).
The hospital made arrangements to move her to the BMT unit, where she and Debbi had spent so much time, as she was not supposed to live through Wednesday. (I will have to give more detail on what happened during this time, later. It is late and I have a busy weekend ahead of me.)
Thursday, when Mary was still alive, arrangements were made to send her home on hospice care. Debbi mentioned that she thought if Mary lived through the weekend, she might be able to go to the temple! (Mary's bishop and a member of the Stake Presidency had gone to the hospital to give Mary her temple recommend interviews and granted her recommends to get her live endowment done and to be able to visit the temple on Monday, May 28th, when she wasn't supposed to live more than two more days.)
Mary lived! Tuesday, June 5th, 2012 Mary went to the Oquirrh Mountain Temple to make sacred covenants with Heavenly Father. It was an amazing experience to be there with her. The temple held a special session for Mary. It was amazing!
Mary outlived all estimates of her longevity. She died when she was good and ready, and figured it out (She told her hospice RN, Scott, that she wanted to die, but couldn't figure out how!) We were very blessed to have the extra three weeks with Mary. She continued to teach us lessons on living during her dying. It was beautiful and something we will always treasure.
I will try to find some of the updates Debbi emailed and post them.
Here is the email she sent out last 6/17/2012:
Friday, October 7, 2011
Update 10/7/2011
It has been a while since I have sent out an update. We have been on a roller coaster ride for the last month not knowing what will happen. Conditions could change tomorrow or not - it is a little like the weather. We had 90 temps last week and this week we have had snow.
Mary was home for a few weeks. She was enjoying sleeping without constant interruptions and food. Her hair is growing in and her appetite is improving. Her kidneys, liver and spleen are slowly improving. She was having dialysis on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday for 4-5 hours as well as blood testing and transfusions if needed on those days. She also had a doctor visit each week usually on Tuesday or Thursday.
Everything changed last week, when she developed a fever. We did a midnight run to the hospital and they started her on antibiotics, which caused her to get a real nasty case of a yeast infections in her mouth and throat. She has been in considerable pain and has not been able to eat since Sunday. She has started to drink again which is a good sign of improvement. They will probably release her this weekend if all goes well.
The biggest news is that her leukemia was coming back. Before she was released from the hospital a month ago we were told that it was back and the tests confirmed that it was increasing by about 5% of blood volume every 2 weeks. I am sorry if some of you were upset that I did not tell you but I have delayed putting out the word until both of us had had time to adjust. We were advised that the only option was to take her off all her immuno-suppressant’s and hope that the graft could fight it off. Chemo/radiation would just kill the newest transplant cells, and she would not survive a third transplant. It was not a very hopeful meeting.
So we went into “What if…?” mode until we received updates from additional testing. The “what ifs” were not plentiful and we began to prepare for her to return to her Heavenly Father if it came to that. We cuddled and had fun, went to plays and parties, whatever she had energy for.
Last week we were told that the additional test showed that no leukemia cells were present in her bone marrow. Her new graft had been able to eliminate the ones that had developed and any new ones as well. This was a definite miracle because of the aggressive nature of her leukemia.
This has also opened the door for Graft vs. Host Disease (GVH or GVHD). She has a very itchy rash all over but it seems to be getting slightly better as the days go one. One of her nurses indicated that a bad case looks similar to leprosy with the skin falling off. We are glad it is just a mild case but Halloween is coming up and that would be a great costume. Instead she has determined that she will be Professor Xavier from X-Men - bald/wheelchair - it works.
The good thing about the most recent transplant is that it was a live donor so we can request additional cells to re-enforce the current cell production if necessary and that was the plan until she started showing signs of GVH. We already have one dose ready to go if they deem it necessary. Since the discontinuation of a number of her medications her kidneys, liver and spleen have been much happier. She has not had dialysis this week yet, the swelling in her spleen has gone back to normal, and her liver enzymes are returning to normal.
A couple of Sundays ago my Dad read me a section in the “Church News” called Laney’s Legacy, this was quoted in the beginning:
In his book, "All These Things Shall Give Thee Experience," Elder Neal A. Maxwell wrote: "A mortal life may need to be 'shortened' … but if so, it may be done in order for special services to be rendered by that individual in the spirit world, services that will benefit thousands of new neighbors with whom that individual will live in all of eternity."
Mary is not ready to give up but she is also preparing for either outcome. She was able to attend church before Conference and meet a number of singles in the area. She said she has missed the spirit of peace that comes from attending services. She said she is ready for her “Happily Ever After” and wants to date, hold hands with a guy and do some smooching. She is also setting aside items that mean a lot to her to be given to people she cares about in the event she gets to join her Dad and brother Daniel.
If there is one thing I would encourage you to do, it is tell and show those most important to you how much you love them, especially your children. GIVE THEM A GREAT BIG HUG JUST BECAUSE YOU LOVE THEM. The time we spend on this earth is temporary and the legacy we leave behind is directly related to how we treated others in this life.
Our Ward and the Singles Ward will be participating in a special fast for her this Saturday and Sunday. If you would like to include her in your fast it would be greatly appreciated.
We appreciate the medical personnel for all their efforts on her behalf. They are an amazing group of people that are selfless in their treatment of those that are afflicted.
We appreciate all the advise on treatments and remedies. Please send them to me by email so we can utilize them if possible. Just be advised that if current treatments don't work, Mary's time will on this earth will be short so we will not have time to research and implement alternatives.
In truth there is only one person that can heal Mary...that is Heavenly Father. This is not a disease that could have been prevented or prepared for. If it is His will that she remain in her mortal body then she will regardless of the setback she keeps having. She was told in a blessing that she would remain until her mortal purpose was fulfilled. I certainly hope that is not for many years.
Thank you all for your love and support.
Love,
Deb
A donation account has been established at Zions Bank and Trust under the name Mary Caroline Hamner to cover medical and non-medical cost for Mary’s treatments.
Previous emails, pictures and creative works can be found on magicalmaryfairy.blogspot.com
Some memorable moments:
Maggie Ketchum, Mary’s cousin, was able to visit Utah for Maggie’s birthday. Mary was surprised and enjoyed her visit with Maggie immensely. She was very sorry that their time was so short and she was not feeling well for most of it.
Grandma Mary came to visit Utah as well and was able to spend some time in the Hospital with Mary. We love you Grandma Hamner.
Many of Mary’s cousins have move to Utah to attend school. It has been a great source of strength to have all of them here, surrounding her with love and support.
There were a few inmates incarcerated with Mary that were in the same general age group and Mary was able to make their acquaintance and become facebook friends.
The cute guy in room 10 was a favorite of the medical staff. I was able to become friends with his mom and eventually the nurses were able to set him up with Mary as a walking buddy. Their first meeting will be a story told for many generations I am sure, but I need to get more details from the other side of the story before I publish it. (Thanks to all the Nurses and Aids that worked on getting these two together, especially Suzie for taking care of the costuming and makeup.)
Jared and Suzanne and Family moved back to Utah. We are so excited to have them back with all their beautiful girls.
Mary received a couple of care packages from Aunts and Uncles and flowers from a friend. Thanks for your thoughtfulness. You are all awesome. She loved them.
It was also nice to have T around to shower her with love only a big brother can.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Friday, August 26, 2011
More Mary
Mary's recovery this week has been miraculous. When I saw her on Sunday, I was very concerned, as she was very tired and worn out. But she has rebounded beautifully, of course, and is doing so much better. The doctor was even saying it might not be long until she can go home.
Anyone that wants to visit Mary definitely can! She is at the University Hospital on the 5th floor in the Bone Marrow Transplant unit, room 7. Please do not go if you have any inkling of illness, as she is still very susceptible to germs. Please make sure to sanitize your hands before going into the unit. And don't hug her too hard! She is very sensitive and it is easy to hurt her! :)
Thank you for your continued prayers! It has been a long year! Hopefully, we have seen the last of the excitement associated with Mary's leukemia!
Love,
Sonja
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Update of sorts
Mary had her second stem cell transplant (as opposed to a bone marrow transplant) on July 1st. Her new immune system has grafted, meaning that she is making her own white blood cells, but she is still in the hospital. Now they have to manage what is called graft versus host disease (GVHD). GVHD is basically keeping her new immune system from attacking her original healthy cells, and still letting it attack and kill the cancer cells. A tricky balance, to say the least.
Mary has had many ups and downs during this process, but right now is definitely at a down point. She had a colonoscopy last week and had to consume a large amount of liquid, which her kidneys have not been able to process and remove from her body. This has caused her to have a harder time breathing, as she has so much fluid in her body.
Today, Mary had her first round of dialysis to help clean her blood and hopefully take the pressure off of her kidneys so they will be able to manage the job they need to be doing. We don't know if she will have to continue to have dialysis, but our prayer is that her kidneys will work on their own, obviously. We are also hopeful that the decrease in fluid will help Mary to breathe more easily.
Mary was anointed and blessed to regain her health, today. We have faith that is what is going to happen.
Of the last 12 months, Mary has spent more than 9 months in the hospital for one reason or another. This has been very difficult for her and for Debbi, who has been there every day for Mary and still continued to work full time. They could use and would appreciate any prayers on their behalf.
As far as I know, they are not in need of any other help at this time. If you plan to visit Mary in the hospital, please be aware that she tires very easily and she is NOT a morning person. Please do not go early in the morning to see her, late morning at the earliest would be best. And please make your visit short. She does not have the energy to entertain people for long visits.
There has been some talk of holding a fundraising dinner, but nothing has been planned at this time. When such an event happens, I will try to remember to post the information here.
Thanks for continuing to pray for Mary and Debbi.
(Everything in this post is my understanding and opinion, if there are inaccuracies or miscommunications, the fault is totally mine.)
Sonja
Monday, June 20, 2011
| Hi all, The blessing for Mary has been moved to 6:30 pm, Tuesday June 21, (tomorrow) at my parents home in Bluffdale: 2555 W 15000 S Bluffdale, UT 84065 Be advised the 15000 south is blocked from Camp Williams Road (Redwood Road) Here is a funny story...(picture attached) On Friday, Mary was transfused with several bags of blood products so she could have her spinal tap for her upcoming transplant. The Dr's started her last bag of platelets right before they had her curl up like a potato bug. After the spinal tap was over and Mary could straighten up, she poked her head out and said "I think I am having an allergic reaction. Do I look like Hitch?" Once it was confirmed that she definitely was doing a EXCELLENT job of an impersonation she was rather excited to get a look in the mirror to confirm for herself the look-a-like aspect. Sometimes the Hospital does not offer sufficient entertainment and you have to get it where you can. Cheers, Deb |
Update 6/17/2011
It has been a while since my last email about Mary. Things have been moving along behind the scenes. Her previous transplant was considered a graft failure and they have been looking for a LIVE donor. They have found one. We do not have any of the specifics on who/where/what yet but will probably have that information on Tuesday when we have the admit consultation.
She has been having chemo treatments about every 5-6 weeks since the leukemia came back to keep it at bay. She has also been in the hospital for infections twice in the last 30 days. 10 months is a long time to be without an immune system and her body is wearing down.
She will be admitted to the University of Utah Hospital (UUH) either on Wednesday or Thursday of next week and start the transplant process again. The Chemo regiment is different than before but she will have Chemo and Total Body Irradiation (TBI) for a week then the transplant.
Currently she is at Huntsman Cancer Hospital (HCH) fighting a few infections and it is hopeful that they will let her out this weekend to spend Father's Day at home. If not she will go directly to UUH from HCH.
I would like her to have a priesthood blessing on Tuesday night at 7:00 pm wherever she is. I would like to invite all that would like to participate to join us.
Many have asked what her chances are. The Dr's said it is less that her 50/50 chance the first time around. The truth is that it is whatever Heavenly Father decides. She has had blessing in the past that have promised her recover because it was not her time to go. I have faith in my Heavenly Father that what happens is his will. I have no reason to doubt his wisdom and love. If you can keep her in your thoughts and prayers we would appreciate it.
Love always
Deb
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Update 3/1/11
Love,Deb
Friday, February 25, 2011
Update 2/25/11
Friday, January 14, 2011
Update 1/14/11
| Mary is being released from the hospital today. I am heading up there now to pack her up and bring her home. What a great way to spend the holiday weekend. Love, Deb |
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Update 12/8/2010
It has been a while since I sent out an update on Mary. She is doing well. The Dr's are expecting to declare a graft any day now. She is at day 27 and is still doing the roller coaster with her blood results. They need 3 days of increasing white blood cell numbers to make an official graft diagnosis.
Everything she has been encountering has been pretty standard with the gastrointestinal issues, mucositis, pneumonia, difficulty breathing (fluid overload), and low blood counts. She had a couple of hours where she thought this might be the end because she just could not get a breath. It had the Medical staff all worked up as well. This was due to having pneumonia and fluid overload at the same time. Corrections have been made and they are watching her fluid intake/output diligently. She has been suffering some anxiety since then but is working through it. She was throwing up blood a few days ago but that could be because the sores from the mucositis are sloughing off and bleeding as they begin to heal. She has also starting to cough/sneeze which could be an allergic reaction since she is starting to see some white blood cell counts or possibly a cold/flu.
The next big hurdle is Graft vs. Host Disease (GVHD). Mary has been treated with immuno-suppressive drugs since before the transplant and has not had any serious illnesses or side effects so we are crossing our fingers that things will continue to go well. A mild case of GVHD is desired since it helps kill any residual bone marrow and any lingering leukemia cells. The problems arise when it is a moderate to severe case attacking organs like the eyes, liver, kidneys, lungs and heart. The benefit of a stem cell transplant is that the side effects are generally on the more mild side. See info below for more information.
I am predicting that Mary will be home before Christmas. That doesn't mean she won't be hospitalized for periodic stays over the next few months. The medical staff has indicated that it is very normal to be in and out for several months just for observation and treatment especially since it is cold and flu season. Mary will have to be admitted any time she has a temp of 100 or higher and for congestion and/or sinus issues. This is due to being on the immunosuppressant drugs and not being able to fight off anything viral, bacterial or fungal for a while.
She is currently off oxygen, pain medications and they are weaning her off her IV meds and changing to oral in preparation for going home. Currently she is on about a dozen IV medications and half a dozen oral medicatonss. There has been some discussion of discharge already. I am being trained to change her dressing for her central line and I already have been giving her the shots she needs when I am there.
One thing I have noticed during her treatment is that she has not developed the gray pallor that so many of the patient here exhibit. I am very grateful that she has remained so healthy during this part of the treatment.
An interesting bit of news - a week or so ago we were notified that there was a national shortage of TPN (total parenteral nutrition) or meal-in-a-bag as we call it. What an odd thing to be short on. We joked a lot about people hording it for their food storage. Whatever the reason Mary has been reduced to a 12 hour IV meal instead of 24 hour meal so she has had to make up those extra calories through oral intake. This has been good to prepare her intestinal track for normal nutrition and she actually ate cantaloupe yesterday and kept it down. I do not even remember the last time she ate more than a spoonful of food at a time, it has been so long. The biggest success is that she has actually had 2 days in the last week, not in a row unfortunately, where she has not thrown up. This is a big, BIG, improvement.
We had a great Thanksgiving week. After the breathing scare I spent the next week having a pajama party with her. Luckily this was over the Thanksgiving holiday and the guest bed at the hospital is not nearly as uncomfortable as the one at Huntsman was. I was able to spend all my time with her until they were able to get things under control and that eased my concerns and hers considerably. We were blessed that they closed the University early that day for weather (weather that oddly enough did not live up to the expectation) so I was there for her. This is just one more example of the miracles that God has blessed us with since this all began - miracles that we probably would never have recognized otherwise.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Day 5 Update
Now the stem cells need to figure out that they need to be bone marrow cells and get to work.
Today is day five. Mary is pretty miserable, although all of the things that she is dealing with are normal for her treatments. That doesn't make it any better, but at least it is not something unexpected. She is in pain and it is painful to talk, or do most anything else. They have given her the morphine button, so she can give herself pain medicine, instead of having to wait for someone to bring it to her. Hopefully that will make things better.
This is Debbi's Facebook status post today: Mary is really low right now. I just haven't had the heart to tell her she hasn't hit the bottom yet. Last night I just held her hand while we watched a movie because anything else is painful. Thank goodness for the blessings she has had and all the prayers on her behalf.
Please continue to pray for Mary and Debbi. And please remember T in your prayers, also. I know they could all use all the prayers they can get.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
Friday, September 17, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
9/16/2010
Rounds today were particularly exciting. The Dr’s suggested that Mary might be released tomorrow. I am shaking with the shock of it. I had told Mary earlier in the week that I was guessing Monday the 20th. As the week has progressed I thought that might even be optimistic but her white blood cell count jumped to over 1 today and she has been put on a soft food diet this morning. She will probably hit whole food tonight. They are also taking her off all IV drips as of today.
Here is what has been happening since the last update.
· Her Hickman Central line had to be removed because of a yeast infection
· PICC line #1 had to be removed because of a blood clot. The PICC team uses an ultrasound to find the vein in your arm. While the PICC team was busy looking at her veins, Mary piped up “Well, is it a boy or a girl?” We all started laughing and Steve, the only male in the room said, “I am hoping for a boy so I am not so outnumbered. It was a great way to diffuse the tension from the procedure. Mary, you are so so so amazing.
· PICC line #2 Mary became a guinea pig for a new student who was replaced by the instructor after she stabbed Mary 3 times and still could not get it. Mary was able to make it through the procedure w/o me there. Kuddos
· She has Hives – from her white blood cells coming back home to find everything a mess – who would have known that one of the 10 plagues would be considered a good thing.
· She has been on meal-in-a-bag (TPN) for over a week to deal with some intestinal inflammation and even though she can eat now she has no appetite
· She has had her lungs and heart scoped
· She has had MRI’s of back, lungs, intestines, heart, stomach (as well as a few x-rays)
· She had a popsicle stick to her lips – the one treat she did get last weekend and she couldn’t get it in her mouth
· Through it all she has been smiling and is now walking a couple of miles a day around the floor (the hamster wheel is what we have been calling it, since the patient rooms are in a circular pattern around the nurse station, and 12 laps make a mile)
· And the final objective - We finished the last puzzle we had yesterday, great news we even had all the pieces
T has been ruled out as a transplant donor for Mary, so they are following up on 4 live donors and 4 cord donors. We should know in the next couple of weeks if one of them works out.
Grandma and Grandpa Soderquist have been working very hard to get her room ready. They removed all the furniture, of course only after cleaning up the room. They removed the carpet and have put in laminate flooring, a new ceiling fan, and are now working on putting her new bed together. I just cannot thank them enough for all their love and support, as well as the support of all our family and friends.
Love always,
Deb



